Damn..

While walking home last night, I witnessed a scene right out of a “telenovela”, two girls were having a catfight while the guy they were fighting about was in the middle, obviously defending the other girl from the wronged one, and I was not sure who the “protagonist” and the “antagonist” in the unfolding drama. Obviously, it was the guy who was at the eye of the storm, he was the one who made the “two-timing” on both girls.

And I can’t help but wonder, will I act the same way If I bumped into my ex with his current girlfriend? How will I react to the situation? I know that the metro is really small, and you can’t help but bump into someone from your past. The other day, I was in the bus with a classmate from elementary, and it was surprising that after 20 long years, I still remember the girl’s face as well as her complete name, so we played catching up, and since she was also my classmate from high school, I tend to blur names since I also thought she was my classmate since first grade. I just realized that I was a transferee in that school when I was on my fourth grade. That’s degressing from my original story. Going back, the guy was shouting at the other girl while she was clawing her “talons” (to those who are not well-read, “talons” are reserved for birds, specifically parrots and eagles, thus, those are other names for nails), and the ensuing scene was downright pathetic.

Hell knows no wrath to a woman scorned, and I just can’t help but think, are those 2 women on a verge of a breakdown, the guy was not even a looker, he was downright ugly. Let me think, did he promised heaven and earth to both women when he was scoring their cherries? The things a guy will do to score, but are we missing something here? If I were the 2 girls, they should both dump the bastard, he does not deserve that attention. In case I bump into an ex, I will just have a naughty smile, something that says, “Hello girlfriend! I was there first, and I know that you are his present sugar mommy, and I just can’t help but feel sorry, I had your man for a song”. Isn’t that bitchy enough? Or how about this, I will make a scene, and cry my heart out, but that will just make me a pathetic loser. Listening to Pussycat Dolls’ song, “Don’t you wish your girlfriend was hot like me….”, Hahahaha!

I know the feeling, of being betrayed, of being lied to, and it has been done over and over again that I am already numbed, I am just a bitter person, someone who is walking wounded, half alive and half dead. I have kissed to many frogs hoping they will turn into princes, but lo and behold, they are still frogs. And what I got, nothing but a broken heart. I am just amazed how resilient the human heart is, it will break, and yet, it will grow again, stronger than before. We will never learn the right ways of loving, because love entails no thinking, it is all about giving. When we are in love, we throw caution to the wind. We forget who we are and we are under the spell that love will eventually save the day.

Fuck those Disney movies, in reality, Hans Andersen’s ending of “The Little Mermaid” is tragic, the girl turned into a seafoam while Disney bastardized it by giving Ariel a happy ending, she got Prince Erich. Damn.