Semi-Charmed Life..

I have hit rock bottom, as in I have to scrape the bottom of the barrel. I am so broke and penniless nowadays. A friend even suggested I should sell my other kidney on eBay already since I just need one out of two. Thanks to friendly jollijeeps (those modern-day “carinderia” around Salcedo/Legaspi Village) downstairs, I still get to eat lunch once in a while, I ask them to jot it down (in short, “lista” or “utang”) and will pay them once I have a little cash. I even borrowed P10 from the building’s security guard just to be able to go to my mom’s house on my way to my perpetual novena to Baclaran.

I even walked once all the way to Baclaran, in the dead of the night, traversing Taft Avenue unmindful of the unwanted elements lurking around the corner. My knees are starting to form blisters from my weekly “maglakad ng paluhod” (walking on one’s knees) all the way to the altar. Whenever hunger pangs strike, I just decide to sleep. I haven’t paid the utilities in the unit for the past 4 months and just awaiting eviction from the developer. An old friend from college who works as AVP for one of the multinational companies usually drops by for lunch or dinner to treat me, as well as a managing director from an advertising agency, and I just have to herald them with funny stories as how I am surviving. I even have to borrow money to be able to buy ink supply for my printer just to be able to send resumes around. So far, I haven’t bought new supplies, and I am really disappointed with my life. It has been 6 months of hearing mass everyday, and I admit that days have gone so fast. It has been already middle of the year, and I have to keep my hopes up, my faith will save me.

I walk the dogs 4 times a day, and give them a bath almost everyday, and get to talk to them a lot. Charlie, the Labrador and Beaver, the American Cocker Spaniel, are my only source of joy in this semi-charmed life of mine. They just recently appeared with me on the pages of Marie Claire Philippine-Edition June issue, thanks Kate Alvarez for the feature and to Myrza Sison for being a friend. I maybe the poorest of the poor, but I am still oh-glamorous. I may have kissed all my designer bags and shoes goodbye, together with my other designer clothes, to all those who bought them on eBay, thanks so much, please take care of my other babies, I will definitely miss them. Gotta go, I have to dress up for another party hobnobbing with the society set, at least I get my photos published in the newspapers and magazines and get free dinner along the way, and drinks to boot. Am I so pathetic after all?

“And with all His abundant wealth through Christ Jesus, my God will supply all my needs.” – Philippians 4:19

“Why should I worry and fret when I can cast all my anxiety on Christ who cares for me.”- 1 Peter 5:7